me, myself and solitude.

I haven't gone out all week, I've been pretty much going from work to home, cooking and playing with Abbey, Ry has gone out all week. I started a journal at home and read about medidating, also decided I'm going to learn how to play the harmonica, I'm spending a lot more time by myself now, practicing some much needed solitude. I've learned so much about my nature lately, the wild woman inside me, how I must not tame her yet learn to use only her qualities instead of the negatives. Some things aren't going to change, but some are a must. I haven't drank either, I plan on buying some soothing caffeine free tea for night times, I'm taking a break. I'm not going to become a loner either, I love being social and that's why tonight I'm going out for a while but with all the events that have recently happened, I think the best thing to do is to dissapear, which I have done to an extend. Work is keeping me busy and so is being at home, I still have a lot of bickering inside my head, a lot of questions that I know will go unanswer for a long time. I know that whatever's meant to happen will happen. I am simply creating a ying yang balance of loudness and silence within my life. There's no point on getting anxious, or living with an eternal "what if" inside my head, it is what it is and this is just another lesson, in the school of life.