the real happily ever after

truth is, there IS no ONE happily ever after...you can be happy, pursue it, achieve it, lose it, re-find it, obtain it, let it go. Thing is, stop expecting it to look a certain way, stop waiting for prince charming, stop trying to control how the story should go, sometimes you get to achieve everything...sometimes things just make perfect sense but other times, life has a different plan for you and that's when you should look around and make the best out of things. Sometimes, you just have to get used to the flow of life in order to understand, even the closer things to you have a plan and a life of their own, can't control...can't expect. Then, all of a sudden you realize that happily ever after is so simple once you let go of everything else, that you can accept yourself, accept your life without giving up on your dreams, that you can see thru the darkness of each day with a smile and understand that life is not going to stop, life won't wait for you...it's happening everywhere and the story is being written, by not just you but by everything around you.

Swirls of Life

The long weekend is gone and here I am again, a huge window in front of me...I like the fact that in this job I get to constantly see the sky, see the wind moving the trees, see everything that's going on somewhere else other than my desk. I cleaned, rested, played, spent time with my little girl who keeps surprising me every day with how damn cool she is. All in all, I had a blast...didnt really stay up late but still enjoyed my time and did what I needed to do. My wedding ring broke last week, stopped wearing it..I'm pretty much neutral about it, doesnt really bother me. I kinda gave up on wearing jewelry, I stopped wearing earrings for some reason and last night I decided to organize my earrings and I found a ring, a silver, long ring with swirls, I remember exactly where it came from, I know how I got it and where I was and how life was back in those days, so many things have changed...so many things have stayed the same yet looking at it there's only one thing I think about, life is a bunch of swirls, there's no pattern, there's no telling on what will happen, you just gotta enjoy the waves and trust in the harmony of it's movement. A certain message disrupted me in a good way, although there's nothing I can really do, but I'm still here, quietly and patiently trusting in life, flowing with the swirls of life.