*tears*

I've been hearing and reading about the Haiti disaster all week, but today I actually cried. I felt the pain, the tragedy, the overwhelming emotion you feel when you try to imagine another person's suffering. It's so hard to try to explain why things like this happen. Is it to be thankful for what you have? Is it to finally get together are human beings? Is it to change us a little bit and make us realize how fragile life is and how in one second, everything could change? I write this with tears in my eyes because I believe there is no explanation, really. I don't blame mother nature, or God or fate or the devil. I'm not going to sit here and point fingers and try to understand it. I've seen the pictures, the heartbreaking faces and the complete mess left behind. In some way we all suffer tragedies every day, we are all fighting a battle and it takes a small gesture to make someone's life a little better. It takes courage, understanding, sympathy, intelligence, integrity to look behond the bullshit and think about other people other than yourself. Maybe this is a wake up call for us all, to look around...to be thankful, to help others, to smile more and complain less, to stop being such a bitch, to donate, to be kind to annoying neighbors, to be a better person. I hope this tragedy will leave more than pain behind, perhaps make a change in us, perhaps leave behind a valuable lesson among the tears.

R.IP all of those who passed away this week, everywhere.

TWENTYTEN-A New Perspective

Happy New Year, a little late but whatever. This new year marks the end of a decade, which I'm still getting used to when I write today's date. It also means that 10 years are GONE, PAST, LIVED and damn, I've lived. I find myself here today with a lot of things I still wanna do and accomplish. So far, I've opened a bank account in a better bank, still working out even though it's cold as hell and I'm still taking photographs and stuff. The things I wanna do vary from making more money, to open up my creativity to initiate an income to finding out the answers to my questions to getting rid of Abbey's pacifier or what she calls (tete). All these things are a challenge but I think I'm more than ready to get off my ass and do more productive things. I've also stopped drinking, not entirely but cut it down to a very good level. There's a lot of shit that worries me but I'm hopeful and I'm little by little taking care of business. I still trust that whatever's meant to happen will happen but I know that I must man up to life and take charge in order to make things happen too. This is my new perspective on it, make life happen and wait for destiny to show you the way.