So it's been a while. Everything has changed, some things remain the same. Like the uncertainty, like the things that are still left unresolved, like the unexplainable stillness that lies within me aside from the shitstorm that I've faced. I got laid off, was able to find a job within a month, thank God and the universe for that. Had to change Abbey from daycares, shes getting used to it now. Turned 27 years old, spent wonderful times with an old friend. Learned from life, learned that doing the wrong thing all the time doesnt lead to anything fulfilling even if your heart is in the right place. I've learned to let go, I've learned from misleading thoughts and mistakes. I'm learning from Abbey, learning to have patience and to take it day by day. She's doing wonderful, making me laugh, pissing me off and all the stuff in between. All in all, although a part of me is hurting from the way life works sometimes, for time not being right, once again. I know that this is how it's meant to be and it's best to flow with it than to try to fight it. Some things are better, some things are workable, some things you just have to accept that only time could make right and when you realize that, it's like finally being able to breath the fresh air of freedom. Recent events have proven to me that I'm not alone, that no matter what life and the awesome people around will take care of me and my daughter. Soooo, I'm restarting my blogging because I need it, because I've missed it and because yes, I blog dammit :)
