dont cry because is over, smile because it happened.

some things ignite fast...leaving you breathless...

some things take forever to fly but stay forever in the sky...

some things are never meant to happen and it remains the same...

other things are meant to end no matter how hard you try...

my heart shifted and it didnt feel the same anymore...

the chapter ended, but I learned...I laughed and now, I smile because it happened.

I chose, to stay.

Wow, talk about being tested, me…the one who always runs away from complications and rather quit than fight, I was about to let go today…about to say “the hell with it” but I didn’t, I looked into his eyes and chose to believe, chose to stay. I jumped off the fucking plane without a parachute and I see the ground beneath me, trusting nothing but his words and my instinct and hoping not to come crashing down. I never thought I could do this, to risk my heart like this, to defend this against all doubts, to face things and keep going, I’m not backing down and I know there’s a lot coming this way, I could see the weather ahead and it ain’t pretty. I’m trying to play the cards the best way I can, this wasn’t supposed to be like this, this simply happened. He could be totally lying to me, I could be a total idiot right now and he could be messing with me, but I think I rather see it for myself and if he is, then lesson learned but at least I could say that I didn’t run away, this time I will be stronger for going thru it without letting fear take control, life is life and this is just that, life and I’m ready to take it by the horns and rock it.

"May the bridges I burn light the way"

My body temperature has returned to its normal state, everything was tested including myself. The emotions were vivid and strange, nothing and everything was said in its own way and now I have within me silence. I'm nervous, like when you are on a roller coaster and it slowly creeps to the highest rail right before it descends rapidly, my heart was beating so hard inside my chest I thought my coworkers would hear it. There's something peculiar about this though, I'm not running away. As scared as I was, I dealt with it.
I'm sticking to my guns, I've burned bridges, I've tried to be honest, I am following my heart, I am discovering courage inside me I didnt think existed. Aside of everything, we are still here, holding on, the first storm has passed and shook me off the ground but I'm back on my feet now, a little scared but fear won't paralyze me this time, because I am armed with intuition and courage, may my heart lead the way.

time out.

I need time. I need silence and gentle thoughts. I need time alone to collect my thoughts, everything has happened so fast, anything that I thought I knew changed and I find myself in a weird unfamiliar world, as beautiful as it is, is still scary and sometimes, too intense.
I dont know what I want, I want peace and noise, I want truth and romance, I want passion and love, I want danger and care, I want to be in a relationship and I want freedom, I want it all. I know that all, I cannot get. I already have so much on my plate, I need to calm down because there's a lot of things I don't understand and others I simply wish not to acknowledge.