I want it all.

Is it normal as human beings to want it all? The greed, the need that seems to take over us as we go about our life, the grass always looks greener on the other side yet we sit and there at it. At this point, I'm still insane...I'm battling my demons and dysecting the situation. I am living day by day and praying for insight. I have no many photograph ideas, it's amazing really. I need to start making them reality before my head blows up. I need cheap rain boots so I could finally take a pic on the abandoned sofa on the field I look at every damn day. It calls my name every time I see it. Things are good, Abbey has growned and learned so much. She understand and speaks like a regular human being now, she's wonderful. I already booked her bday party place and got the bday party stuff. I just need to figure out the food and all the other details. There's a lot going on but as always, I'm taking it slow.

"I love you"

Abbey has recently began to say "I love you"; until now she would refuse to say it. She looked at me the other day and said "I love you , mommy" I've been lucky enough to hear those words many of times since I was put on this earth, whether it came from my parents, boyfriends, friends...I've heard it plenty of times but I have never heard it coming from my daughter and it was simply wonderful. Words cannot express it really, there's is no such comparison. It just is and it makes all her tantrums and annoying little remarks totally worth taking. If I've learned something is that you simply never know; you'll never know where life might take you but I could tell you now, she and I, forever. She will grow and she will love me for who I am, and respect despite my craziness and I would love her eternally for who she is. She'll learn as she grows old...she'll fall in love, she'll have adventures, heartbreaks, all the other wonderful things that life brings. I could only hope to be so lucky, to be part of everything. If there's a definition of bond and pure love, this is it, Abbey and I.