Balance.

My mother in law has a couple of card decks, each of them is different, she has one for the goddesses, another one for angels, etc. Last time, I needed guidance, Abbey was playing with the Goddesses one and I asked her to pick a card, the card it was the Goddess, Athena and it said to trust your gut, which helped me so much because that's what I needed to hear. Yesterday, Abbey was playing with the Angels deck, and again I asked her to pick a card for me, she picked Balance, it basically said to learn to balance my life between work, family, myself and fun. Which is funny again, because that's exactly what I'm trying to achieve, all week last week I stayed home, meditated, relaxed, etc. On the weekend, I went out and played, spent time with my little girl, who's the most awesome person in my world, she makes everything brighter. So, little by little I'm moving on, I miss my friends, I still got some unfinished issues inside my mind, I'm learning to control my wild side to a point, honestly it'll be silly to think that I will change the wild woman inside me completely and I dont want to lose her, she's awesome, lol but I think is important to learn to balance myself between the pillars that divide my life, I need a new book, I also want to work on a new portrait, something creative. The silence of my house at night sometimes drives me crazy, I was so used to having distractions, I need to get used to being at ease with myself when the silence is all I have, to handle my thoughts better because I usually start over thinking things and wondering things I shouldn't be questioning. "Todo a su tiempo" which means, "all has a timing" and right now if I try to rush thru this then nothing will be accomplished, I just need to focus on the present, the chips will fall where they may.