Last post in December? Really?

Wow, I completely forgot about this blog, but in between facebook, twitter and livejournal can you really blame me?? Truth is, I've been blogging in livejournal for soooo many years that's kinda like nature for me to just update it. It's a habit of mine, so excuse my absense. Here I am now, things are good. I'm still trying not to lose my mind and I'm learning how to be a mom every day, Abbey is amazing. She's soooo funny, honestly she's like having my own stand up comedian, the things she says are simple too funny, probably because it's all natural, nothing worse than someone trying to be funny. Anyway, aside from that things are good; the economy is pretty scary and annoying but we still manage to make it and have fun in between. My thing today is, seeing the world. Ahhh, the world. I have this other habit of going through msn. com's best pictures and I just saw this slideshow of 28 wonderful sights around the world; GOD it was enough to make my heart ACHE to actually see it. Not just see it but have Abbey see it and live it with those who I love the most. I wish I had a magic travel pass that'll allow me to go anywhere I want for free and take those I wanted to. I get anxious to see so many beautiful places and here I am, at my desk. *sighs* not fun, but everything has it's timing and right now I think it's the time to do exactly what I'm doing, living life here...raising my child and having simple fun. I know that as Abbey gets older it'll be even better to see all those places, but still the reason I get anxious I think is because I feel like there's so much to see and no way to get there, or so much to see and I'm wasting away by not being there, is that wrong? Is it not enjoying what I have here? Which is partially why I'm not there, because I must learn to enjoy life everywhere, not just in those places that appeal the most to me. Anyway, I'll give time time, but I will not allow myself to fall back on this and end up a 70 something year old woman still looking at those amazing photograhs around the world thru the internet oh no...I shall be IN the pictures, smiling away. Yep.