afraid of change?

A friend of mine told me a while ago that ever since I had Abbey I am more afraid of change; now I'm beginning to see what he was talking about. The truth, it IS fucking scary. Every decision I make has an effect on her. It is harder because a little person depends on you and with Ry working so fucking far it all falls on me. Like, when she's sick and I have to pick her up from daycare, it's all me. Okay, so my job has been pretty whatever lately, I'm not getting a raise and my friday check feels less and less secured, aside from that sometimes I cant even cash it and I'm asked to deposit it on Monday which leaves me the whole weekend without money basically and I know it's bullshit. You might ask why I put up with it and the honest truth is, comfort. My bosses know me and know my child and when Abbey got sick I was able to bring her here, if I ever have to take her to her doctor or whatever there's no problem at all. Those things might seem small but it makes a big difference in my life. Another reason why I'm still here is because Abbey's daycare is five minutes away; if anything happens I'm right there and it's such a wonderful daycare. She loves her teachers and her friends, she talks about them every day and is happy to be there. For months I've seen my current job become less and less realiable so, I've applied to different places, not getting a call back was kind of comforting because I wasn't pressured to make a decision, that was until today. I got a call back from an insurance agent and I have my interview this weekend. The office is located close to my house which would've been perfect if abbey's daycare will be close by BUT it really isn't. I mean, it's not THAT far but it will take me longer to pick her up or drop her off. One of the best things is that I could get out of work and be there in 5-8 minutes, I really can't wait to see her and if I take this job she will have to be in daycare for a looooonger period of time. Another thing is that I already paid for next year's registration which is non refundable. I'm getting too ahead of myself here, in order to not lose my mind I'm going to take it day by day. I'm going to go to the interview and see if it's something that'll be worth it; I'm thinking I need to make more money or there's no deal. Then I have to see if I even get hired; after that I will somehow make it work. We will have to wake up earlier or I dont know but I will try my hardest to keep Abbey there, I know that she will have to change schools someday but right now she's only two and I dont want to change her until she could talk more and develop more. In reality it breaks my heart even thinking about her being in another daycare with strange kids and teachers which is why I'll try to make this work. I'm getting my period soon too so it might be why I'm being so emotional about this but regarless, one day at a time and I already left it in God's hands. There's nothing else for me to do.