I chose, to stay.

Wow, talk about being tested, me…the one who always runs away from complications and rather quit than fight, I was about to let go today…about to say “the hell with it” but I didn’t, I looked into his eyes and chose to believe, chose to stay. I jumped off the fucking plane without a parachute and I see the ground beneath me, trusting nothing but his words and my instinct and hoping not to come crashing down. I never thought I could do this, to risk my heart like this, to defend this against all doubts, to face things and keep going, I’m not backing down and I know there’s a lot coming this way, I could see the weather ahead and it ain’t pretty. I’m trying to play the cards the best way I can, this wasn’t supposed to be like this, this simply happened. He could be totally lying to me, I could be a total idiot right now and he could be messing with me, but I think I rather see it for myself and if he is, then lesson learned but at least I could say that I didn’t run away, this time I will be stronger for going thru it without letting fear take control, life is life and this is just that, life and I’m ready to take it by the horns and rock it.