cant be tame.

So, I changed my hair again...is straight now, the curls or semi curls got on my nerves...
I'm lacking sleep, as always...I've been waking up a lot throughout the night, weird dreams and tiredness.
I'm 27 years old and still wear blue nail polish, I feel like I'll probably wear funky nail polish until I die, I'd be an El Camino driving, domino playing, funky nail color granny. Hell to the yes.
A lot of things don't make sense, still. I feel like the smoke hasn't cleared and this is just the in between stage, I feel stupid sometimes others I feel totally blissful. I am yet to get control over my emotions, I am still learning to accept and let go, I feel like the older you get the more you should be able to control yourself yet I lack so much control and I still feel as wild as when I was younger. I feel a strange and comfortable silence today, something I'm familiar with by now, I don't really know how to explain what I'm doing, all my life has seem divided, I've been so many different people, I've seen so many things and I've learned to live this doble life in a way that I can't explain. I let myself get carried away with feelings, with the rush of the moment, I crash and burn and then I dust myself off and take flight, not even i can tame me.