Life throws a lot of things at you; it teaches you by giving you things. It teaches you by taking them away, sometimes the timing's off and there's nothing you can do. Fate has its time and that's the only one that matters not ours. Like a band aid that's how it was. I didn't even see it coming, it was just a spark...a few words and that's that. I don't even want to get into it because I've talked about it before now I just need to focus on the present and update this shit because I've been so lazy to even blog. Soooo, updates:
I got two new tattoos, a pirate flag on my rib cage and a shooting star on the side of my neck. It wasn't really planned but I love them both. I feel like they happened at the right time in my life; I'm done for a while though. I'm gonna get them retouched this weekend and that'll be the end of ink pain for a good time.
Abbey is doing really good, she's talking like crazy. She makes me laugh and surprises me every day with the things she says and remembers, it's so much fun. We just hang out as if she was my little girlfriend. When I first found out I was pregnant I wanted it to be a boy because I get along with boys better than girls but I'm so glad I got a girl because I'm learning so much from her and it's making me look at things in a whole different light. Ry and I have been in a pretty rocky place lately, it has to do with how different we are and I guess monogomy and every day stress but I am making it MY GOAL to reconnect with him. My heart has its own issues, but I must let things be, let the chips fall where they may and look at the present because the future is never guaranteed; whatever's meant to be...will be.
Work is there, still got one which it's good but the guarantee of a paycheck at the end of the week is getting scary. I've been thinking about a second job and I'm still applying around but so far things have remained the same. I keep praying that somehow things get better financially, I'm thankful for what I have but the economical stress SUCKS ASS. I know that life and God will provide but when you have a little person depending on you it's essential to make things work. I just want to make sure that she never lacks what she needs and I'm even thinking about getting some sorta degree or something to ensure my future. That's a near future plan because I still gotta take care of certain things before I could do that but I'm giving it some real thought this time. Point is, there's nothing I could do to really change things right now...I cant snap my fingers and make things fall into place, all I can do is try to manage the things I can at this moment, live the present and let fate do its thing with everything else. My life has already been written, I just need to follow along without wanting to take a peek at it, I just need to let it go and trust myself and enjoy my path.
I got two new tattoos, a pirate flag on my rib cage and a shooting star on the side of my neck. It wasn't really planned but I love them both. I feel like they happened at the right time in my life; I'm done for a while though. I'm gonna get them retouched this weekend and that'll be the end of ink pain for a good time.
Abbey is doing really good, she's talking like crazy. She makes me laugh and surprises me every day with the things she says and remembers, it's so much fun. We just hang out as if she was my little girlfriend. When I first found out I was pregnant I wanted it to be a boy because I get along with boys better than girls but I'm so glad I got a girl because I'm learning so much from her and it's making me look at things in a whole different light. Ry and I have been in a pretty rocky place lately, it has to do with how different we are and I guess monogomy and every day stress but I am making it MY GOAL to reconnect with him. My heart has its own issues, but I must let things be, let the chips fall where they may and look at the present because the future is never guaranteed; whatever's meant to be...will be.
Work is there, still got one which it's good but the guarantee of a paycheck at the end of the week is getting scary. I've been thinking about a second job and I'm still applying around but so far things have remained the same. I keep praying that somehow things get better financially, I'm thankful for what I have but the economical stress SUCKS ASS. I know that life and God will provide but when you have a little person depending on you it's essential to make things work. I just want to make sure that she never lacks what she needs and I'm even thinking about getting some sorta degree or something to ensure my future. That's a near future plan because I still gotta take care of certain things before I could do that but I'm giving it some real thought this time. Point is, there's nothing I could do to really change things right now...I cant snap my fingers and make things fall into place, all I can do is try to manage the things I can at this moment, live the present and let fate do its thing with everything else. My life has already been written, I just need to follow along without wanting to take a peek at it, I just need to let it go and trust myself and enjoy my path.
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