sober.

It's been two weeks since it ended, since I felt my heart shift and I decided to stop eating shit and forget it. It wasn't done how I wanted it, but it had to be done like that I guess, to make it final. Either way, I feel like an addict, counting the weeks I've been sober. I guess, it is like a drug...you do go thru withdrawals, your mind stops spinning...your heart stops racing and it all feels different until you eventually learn to live without that feeling. I'm still learning, I gotta admit it is getting better. I understand that in time, everything gets easier. I also understand that time doesnt give a shit if you're not ready for it, shit happens and it's gonna happen to you no matter what, so might as well face it and sober up.