healing time.

I need to learn how to control my emotions a little more, the last week of the month it's always such a rollercoaster. I never believed in "hormonal mood swings" until I had Abbey and my hormones got totally out of control now, every last week of the month it's a drag. I feel bummed out and little things bother me and easily depress me. What the fuck? I know that there's so much for me to be thankful for. I guess it is real, and now I need to come up with ways to beat it and have a normal month without feeling bipolar. So, out of the top of my head I'm gonna focus on the things are happy about. Like my job, like having a mother in law who is loving and willing to watch Abbey the days daycare isnt open, like a husband who is a great dad, like having a healthy and happy little girl who's awesome, like my health somewhat. I guess it's a human thing, to always find defects in the things you've got but it's so useless to spend so much energy focusing on those things. I feel like being part of nature more, to touch trees, smell more flowers, experiencing being part of what we are meant to be part us, we are all connected to these things and I think being closer to mother nature will nurture and heal our souls. I need to heal, probably of self inflected wounds, big time. Let it begin, better late than never.