Look at the bright side

I find myself stuck in a gray cloud today due to finances. I pay things late, except for daycare. I am having some difficulties making ends meet to the point where I would like to get a second job or something but then I wouldn't see Abbey as much. I dont' know...when I was little I used to draw this eye in a sun thing and to me, it meant look at the bright side and I would always draw it, was it an early sign that life is shitty and will always have shitty moments so, we need to be constantly reminded that we must look beyond the bullshit and try to see the positive? I am scrapping it next week, like always. I must try to not spend ANY money or spend as little as possible even if it means making some sacrifices. I could sit here and complain about how unfair it is that some people have soooo much money and yet some have nothing but then again what I might have right now could be a fortune to those less fortunate than me. I don't know, I'm kinda bummed about it but I promised I wasn't gonna let this BULLSHIT affect me this way, it will work out at least I've got what I've got and I'm thankful.