There's no happily ever after. And I dont care.

Sorry to be so damn realistic, but it's true. You won't meet someone and be in love forever and live happily ever after. You'll meet someone and it'll be great for a while until someone stops feeling it. Until someone changes or no one changes yet it doesnt feel the same. Maybe you'll leave, maybe you'll stay because changing your life will be too frightning for you to do but all in all there's no ONE happiness, there's no ONE love or ONE happily ever after. Took me 26 years to find this out and as depressing as it may seem, it's also liberating. I've met guys, many guys...some I cared for, some I didn't bother with, some I loved, some I still love. I've felt in love plenty of times, although later I realized it wasn't love. Still, some things are and some aren't and only time will tell you which things are real. Even if you spend 50 years with ONE person, it doesn't mean you got your happily ever after, it just means no one made a move. I meet people who have been together for a long time, get along just fine...I ask them what's the secret? They try to come up with some clique line like "Communication is key" I guarantee they haven't talked all night in years, made love in a decade? That's not happiness, things end whether the whole world knows or not, it fades. I am happy as of now, but I know that the only love that will be neverending, will be the love for my child...that's it. Whether I stay with Ry or not, whether I end up somewhere else, it's all temporary happiness and then it'll be gone. Maybe this is what makes it beautiful? Maybe it's sad? It's a pursuit, the pursuit of the happily ever after. I no longer care about being happy forever, give me this happiness...give me short happiness, even if it all ends, at least I could say that I've been happy...I no longer expect it to last forever; It's better if it doesn't.