monday's blahs

I feel so blah...maybe is because I just called that job just to find out they already have someone there, I guess they needed to hired someone right away. Maybe is because it's such a slow day at work and I only have a specific amount of websites I could visit before time here gets repeditive and dull; maybe is simply because is monday. I'm trying to lift my spirits up before I pick Abbey up; I really hate picking her up in a bad mood, although seeing her automatically lifts my spirits. I guess I'm just thinking about the negative. I'm not seeing the fact that I have a job and are able to pay for what I need and even a little more; I'm just focused on my defects. I really need to go back to the jogging track tonight, my ankles killed me last time and I'm not lying, it sucked. I gave myself a week break and now I have that "laziness" guilt all over me so, I need to get my shit together and go jogging tonight. *sighs* I think the little vacation time I have coming up it's much MUCH needed. I hate having so much time to think; need to somehow let it go. This is what's happening and I have to accept it, so in other words...fuck it.