from party girl to mom...

I will say this...I should've been reviewing my homework with some guy named Stuard instead of having so much damn fun. I don't regret it because I did what I wanted to and I went with what felt right but I have to admit that my parents were right and I hate it. Consequences never show themselves until later and in my case a lot later. My past is a blur mixed with a cloud of smoke...there's something like Led Zepellin playing in the background. There was not a thought of the future because I honestly didn't think of having one besides partying it up; that was until I got a big fat "You're Pregnant" on my home pregnancy test and I had to make a decision. My friend simply said "Let me know who to call; you can only go two ways" as simple and encouraging as that. I chose with that felt right and once again followed my heart all the way to motherhood. Within weeks I traded in my beer mug and all nighters for OBGYN appointments and prenatal vitamins. Now, a year later I am still trying to figure this all out. I'm still trying to come to terms with who I am now as well as trying to do my "job" as good as I can. I have never had so much responsability nor loved someone so much which is terrifying as well as a blessing. Having her has made me think back to my high school days and reconsidered some of the options I made. I continue to wonder and explore this new world as my little one explores hers. My life has never been so wonderful and challenging as now...I confess: It's my biggest adventure so far.